Updates (5-17-09)

wow, it's been awhile since I've blogged! better get started on some updates.

well, the other night I watched Titanic. oh my gosh, it's SO sad! I was bawling my eyes out. but it is so good at the same time... aren't all sad movies? I think that it's the saddest movie I have ever seen, and I've seen my share of sad movies. I was probably a sight to see, sitting at my laptop bawling my eyes out over this movie. haha :]

well, I'm not really sure what else has happened... but I can recount what happened yesterday, which was a pretty fun day!

well I'll start with a bit of background information. in school we have drama class, and our grades (7 and 8) had two plays: whodunit? and The Scottish Play. I was in the latter, but I had a tinyyyy part in the first (I got to scream and faint, then be carried out on a stretcher... twas fun. haha). so anyway, we had rehearsals off-site (at a church where our performances would be) and the rides could be very entertaining.
So yeah. background info pretty much complete...
So yesterday I babysat in the morning, then awhile after that some friends came over and we hung out, then I went to drama performances.... all after getting 6-7 hours of sleep. So I was majorly exhausted... but performances went great, so that was good! at least what I saw of them. if we weren't in the play we couldn't watch the other ones, so I didn't get to see most of the other plays. But what I did see was good, and I heard awesome reviews. yay!

and now I'm working on finding information on Israel. why? In school we're having a world culture fair, and we have to find a bunch of information on a country assigned to you and a partner (my partner and I got Israel). Explanation over. haha.... so anyway, we have this list of all this information we're supposed to find, and I can't find some of it. like anywhere... so hopefully my partner has better luck than I do on that! I'm getting so sick of this, and we're supposed to have all our information found by tomorrow so that we can start putting it onto poster boards for when we present.... but it's been sort of interesting I guess to find out all this stuff about another country.

well anyway, I had better get back to homework... bluck.

6-7-09

So..... today is May 7. national day of prayer.... also a pretty bad day for me. quite bad really. one year ago today, something changed my life forever. so obviously I wasn't too happy today. But after my friends noticed I had to push it all back, which probably just made it worse. I don't want to ruin their day just because of my own stupid problems.
I mean, the people around me shouldn't suffer just because of something that is making me suffer. instead of focusing on myself, I should be bringing a smile to someone else's face. right? it's just emotions. they're all in your head.

anyway. since I was having such a bad day, I couldn't focus on the bright side.... my friends finally get back from ethiopia tomorrow. I'm so excited to see them, pumped really, but I just can't think about it with what's going on. It makes me feel like a bit of a jerk.

Well that's all. I felt like I needed to write something since I haven't in quite awhile, but I am just not in the mood.

Sick... ick. (5-2-09)

So.... I'm sick. and it totally sucks.

First, we thought I might have strep.... but we sat in the hospital like four hours just to find out I didn't have strep. So I was glad for that, went to school yesterday (I had stayed home on Thursday) and had an okay time (I still felt sorta sick). Then last night for youthgroup we went to a Twins game (which was TOTALLY AWESOME) but I couldn't really enjoy it because I felt sorta sick and tired and my eye was acting up.... I get home to find out I most likely have pink eye. whoo hoo.

So I'm feeling quite miserable. There was so much I wanted to do this weekend, and now it looks like I can't do any of it! :( though I did some research, and if my pinkeye is caused by bacteria (which now I'm hoping it is) I could get antibiotics and it'll probably be gone in a day or two... which would be nice. Because I REALLY don't want to miss more school- plus I have a lot of soccer stuff this weekend (though I suppose I wouldn't be well enough in time for it anyway... :( Ish.)

Added to all this, there was a reported case of swine flu in our county. So now I'm really scared I'm going to get that.

Wow,.... I think I'm turning into a germaphobe....

Withdrawal? (4-27-09)

I think I'm having friend-withdrawal. Haha... A couple of my really close friends are gone for two weeks and I miss them SO MUCH! I don't know what I am going to do these next to weeks... :( I've nearly cried like three to five times during school and actually have cried once I got home. who knows how these next couple weeks will go.... but I'm counting down; (I guess it's a bit under two weeks...) 11 days more! so many :(
*sigh.*
and to top it off... I feel like they don't like me so much anymore. maybe I'm just overreacting or something but.... I just feel like they like my friends more than I (even the ones they used to hate they're clicking with now) and so that doesn't really make things any better. I guess I'm just frustrated and this withdrawal thing is making it all worse.

anywho.

So after school today I met with my mentor, and we went to Caribou Coffee. that was prettty sweet! Got my mind off of my friends for a bit.... and onto God and his amazingness. (He is quite amazing. really!)

Anywho, I better go... do some homework :\ maybe it will help get my mind off them some more... I feel like I miss so many people right now! ish. I just need to talk to them..... all of them....

*sigh.*

Weekend... 4-25-09

I have a pretty packed couple days this weekend! Well mostly just yesterday and today, Sunday I'm not up to much (that I know of).

So yesterday I had an indoor soccer game! whoo. We won, but barely. The other team didn't have any subs, and they were awesome so we probably would have lost if they had had subs. haha :) But I was getting super frustrated because our coach wouldn't play some of us! Well really just like three of us: one of them being me. He just rotated in the really good players, and it was really frustrating. Oh well.

Then today! I just got back from a Student Leadership Meeting... On the way home we stopped at a store quick, and then my sister and her husband are coming up to visit so we can celebrate birthdays! (my sisters have really close birthdays; the 23 and 24 of April.) So that will be fun... Then later today I have another indoor game! So a pretty busy day; thought I'd take some free time to blog since I didn't have time to yesterday.

Sunday I don't really have much going on- pretty much church and homework. Hopefully I'll have some time in there to clean (whoo! fun!) and maybe kick around a soccer ball a bit or something. Who knows!

So yeah... my weekend! Better head off now....!

wow. just wow. 4-23-09

Wow! God is like crazy. I've just been realizing that lately.

Just now I was eating ice cream and watching the last glimpses of the sun as it finished its descent below the gently waving tree tops. Wind blew all around me, teasing my hair and kissing my skin. I couldn't help but praise God for his glorious creation! The past few days have been so amazingly beautiful, the weather has been just gorgeous. Though I was expecting to do some dancing in the rain tonight, it cleared right up and I had this awesome time instead (though I still wish that I could have gotten some rain time in).

"For his invisible attributes, namely, his ternal power and divine nature, have been clearly perceived, ever since the creation of the world, ion the things that have been made. So they are without excuse." -Romans 1:20

Bad Day 4-21-09

Ick. So today was a pretty bad day for me. I don't know why it even went that bad... I mean, there are several things that made it bad that I can point out, but somehow when I look back it just seems worse.
But yeah. I woke up this morning and felt sick, and woke up with a headache; which always makes your day worse (or at least mine). Then math just really frustrated me today, and I'm not really sure why. Sometimes math just gets to me. Then I got really stressed out during science over a couple things... like, majorly. Yeahh... drama and health were sweet though, especially health (cuz we're learning about the brain and I LOVE that stuff!).... After school, though, I had to stay after for math. ick. Now I'm suuuuper hungry. And there isn't anything to eat, because my parents made something for dinner I don't like and we don't have anything else to eat around (as usual); super frustrating. Blah.
And I'm not looking forward to tonight either.... Seems like it'll be pretty suckish. I really wanted to go to my friend's softball game, but my other friend didn't want to go so I didn't... Because I didnt' want to go alone. And then I'm not going to have anyone to talk with on IM tonight so I'll be lonely.... And I still have a headache, am really hungry, and tired; so I don't want to do my homework. Especially since the majority of it is math, and I hate math. (except for a few parts of it, like sine cosine and tangent)

So anyway. I'm guessing ya'll had GREAT fun reading my rantings about my bad day... I just really needed to get it out though, and (as I said before) I don't have anyone to IM to it about... haha

God bless!