θυμηθείτε τη μία
in case you don't know Greek, that means "remember the One." At least according to my igoogle application that translates for you... I usually double check stuff, but I'm not in the mood for that right now. so if it's wrong, correct me (I'm sorry!) and I will change it. though I'm guessing of the few (if any) people who read this, next to none (or, more likely, nobody) knows Greek. congrats if you do, it's a wonderful language- one I'd love to learn.
anyway, that paragraph is mostly off-topic. the first sentence is about all that's ON topic... so anyway, here I go. About to plunge into my topic for this blog, one that will probably turn into ramblings. haha
...
wow. I'm not sure where to begin... I don't really want to share the whole story behind what gave me this sort of "realization" (that I've realized before, but it's been awhile...) because it's pretty personal. which makes it a bit harder to explain it all... but anyway...
...
how crazy is it that there is someone out there, some guy, who God created and designed to be the perfect match for me? How crazy is it that there is someone amidst the (what, 3.3 billion? let's go with that) 3.3 BILLION people who inhabit this planet that I am designed for, who I am MADE to MEET... who is perfect for me... some guy who is living his own life (most likely sleeping, seeing as it's like 1:30 am.... unless he lives somewhere else in the world... anywho), most likely totally unaware that I even exist. As am I totally blanked to who HE is... wow. It's just a thousand kinds of crazy. haha
I mean, God has things pretty well planned. Think of how carefully He must formulate and plan each of the 116,000 babies I've heard estimated are born each day... that's a LOT. and He has a plan for each and every one of them. And to think He figured out what was going to go down in MY life, to think He planned and made some other person who is like perfectly suited just for me, and I for him, so that one day we can get married... what a wonderful day that will be.
Well, that turned into a lot of ramblling.... but... oh well. had to get some stuff off of my chest. So for now... I think I might put on some chapstick and head to bed- maybe to dream of the One made just for me... who knows.
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Monday, July 13, 2009
Musings on Life....
Life.
It's something that everyone goes through, but few actually live. So, what is the key that those who actually live their life have found? Or is there really a key thing at all- are some people just born with some ability?
Whatever the case, life is accompanied with millions of questions, and barely any of them will get answered while you still need them answered.
But what if life is just filled with failure? What if it's just disappointment after disappointment, with only sprinklings of happiness in between? What if nothing good comes out of the life you lived? What if you're not remembered by anyone after you die, what if you die alone with no legacy to leave? What if everything you thought you knew, everything you trusted and believed in, just turns out to be a lie? What if it's true that real life doesn't have fairytales?
Well, don't expect this blog to contain any answers. At least not yet. Right now my heart and mind are riddled only with questions, and nobody seems to have an answer. Granted the only people I can talk about this with are people who are younger than me, but still. Nobody seems to have an answer, and maybe that's just part of this thing we call life.
It's something that everyone goes through, but few actually live. So, what is the key that those who actually live their life have found? Or is there really a key thing at all- are some people just born with some ability?
Whatever the case, life is accompanied with millions of questions, and barely any of them will get answered while you still need them answered.
But what if life is just filled with failure? What if it's just disappointment after disappointment, with only sprinklings of happiness in between? What if nothing good comes out of the life you lived? What if you're not remembered by anyone after you die, what if you die alone with no legacy to leave? What if everything you thought you knew, everything you trusted and believed in, just turns out to be a lie? What if it's true that real life doesn't have fairytales?
Well, don't expect this blog to contain any answers. At least not yet. Right now my heart and mind are riddled only with questions, and nobody seems to have an answer. Granted the only people I can talk about this with are people who are younger than me, but still. Nobody seems to have an answer, and maybe that's just part of this thing we call life.
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Comparisons
I know that I just recently entered a blog, but I had a little inspiration from my friend, in an unexpected form. in frustration, she told me to stop comparing myself to her. which made me think (oh no, here I go again... thinking. not usually a good thing.).
why do we always compare ourselves to others? "she is so much prettier than I am" "why can't I have her sense of style" "he is a way better football player than I'll ever be" "he can get all the girls, and I can't even get one" "she always knows what to say" and so many more things flood our minds and control how we think and feel, at least on occasion. personally it happens to me all of the time.
while this might seem "normal" to people, it shouldn't be. we shouldn't be comparing ourselves to our fellow man, who are obviously not perfect, but rather to Jesus. after all, he was the only perfect person to ever live.
so how do we do that, if he's not even alive today? well he may not be visible, but we can still talk to him. he's always listening and willing to help us out. digging into God's Word is pretty much the best way, I think. reading up on all the things that Jesus did, and trying to apply them to our lives. again, I'll make reference to Philippians 2, verses 5-11 about.
so instead of thinking of all the people around you and trying to morph into what they appear to be, focus on who Jesus was. be like Jesus, not like man.
why do we always compare ourselves to others? "she is so much prettier than I am" "why can't I have her sense of style" "he is a way better football player than I'll ever be" "he can get all the girls, and I can't even get one" "she always knows what to say" and so many more things flood our minds and control how we think and feel, at least on occasion. personally it happens to me all of the time.
while this might seem "normal" to people, it shouldn't be. we shouldn't be comparing ourselves to our fellow man, who are obviously not perfect, but rather to Jesus. after all, he was the only perfect person to ever live.
so how do we do that, if he's not even alive today? well he may not be visible, but we can still talk to him. he's always listening and willing to help us out. digging into God's Word is pretty much the best way, I think. reading up on all the things that Jesus did, and trying to apply them to our lives. again, I'll make reference to Philippians 2, verses 5-11 about.
so instead of thinking of all the people around you and trying to morph into what they appear to be, focus on who Jesus was. be like Jesus, not like man.
Rain and Forgiveness
so today we got a some rain! it wasn't raining very hard, but I just leaped at the opportunity to do some dancing in the rain- a rare event here, where we seem to get surprisingly little rain. so I ran outside, plopped a towel by the door, picked up an umbrella (that would only get used sparingly, of course) and the fun began.
I had just finished watching Mamma Mia so I was singing (well more whispering) the lyrics to (what else?) the song Mamma Mia, as much as I could remember, and making up choreography to go with it. Using the umbrella, which came in quite handy. I had a grand old time, and finished my "musical number" off with some puddle jumping.
And I couldn't help but think about the rain. I know, I know, I think way too much.
Rain is so refreshing... and it made me think of how Jesus' blood washes away the sin in our lives (metaphorically) just as the rain washed and cleansed me (at least a little). how undeserving we all are of his love and mercy, but yet he offered it up so willingly... without putting up a fuss in the least... because he loved us that much. Wow.
and it all fit in perfectly with what I had been thinking about earlier today, during church. In sunday school we had read Philippians chapter 2 (I'd encourage anyone reading this to check it out) and then during church I had been thinking about some stuff... so I'd like to bring you with me on the thought train that I rode this morning.
okay, here we go. First, picture the worst death you could imagine going through. Whatever that may be. you would never want to have to go through that, now would you? if you would want to, you must not have picked the worst death you could think of. so keep thinking.
so, now think of this. think of the person you love the most in the entire world. for some of you, that might be a mom or dad, a sister or brother... for others of you who don't have a family (or aren't close to them, such as the case with me) think of a friend. if you're a loner, think of a pet, anything. you get the point I think.
now, would you love that person (or animal... don't want to be exclusive here! haha) enough to die that death you had thought of before? if someone came up to you and said you had to die that death or they would kill that person (or animal) the same way, what would you pick?
most of us would pick living. but Jesus didn't. and that is a truly amazing thing to me.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9xO9MngQqa4
I had just finished watching Mamma Mia so I was singing (well more whispering) the lyrics to (what else?) the song Mamma Mia, as much as I could remember, and making up choreography to go with it. Using the umbrella, which came in quite handy. I had a grand old time, and finished my "musical number" off with some puddle jumping.
And I couldn't help but think about the rain. I know, I know, I think way too much.
Rain is so refreshing... and it made me think of how Jesus' blood washes away the sin in our lives (metaphorically) just as the rain washed and cleansed me (at least a little). how undeserving we all are of his love and mercy, but yet he offered it up so willingly... without putting up a fuss in the least... because he loved us that much. Wow.
and it all fit in perfectly with what I had been thinking about earlier today, during church. In sunday school we had read Philippians chapter 2 (I'd encourage anyone reading this to check it out) and then during church I had been thinking about some stuff... so I'd like to bring you with me on the thought train that I rode this morning.
okay, here we go. First, picture the worst death you could imagine going through. Whatever that may be. you would never want to have to go through that, now would you? if you would want to, you must not have picked the worst death you could think of. so keep thinking.
so, now think of this. think of the person you love the most in the entire world. for some of you, that might be a mom or dad, a sister or brother... for others of you who don't have a family (or aren't close to them, such as the case with me) think of a friend. if you're a loner, think of a pet, anything. you get the point I think.
now, would you love that person (or animal... don't want to be exclusive here! haha) enough to die that death you had thought of before? if someone came up to you and said you had to die that death or they would kill that person (or animal) the same way, what would you pick?
most of us would pick living. but Jesus didn't. and that is a truly amazing thing to me.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9xO9MngQqa4
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Updates (5-17-09)
wow, it's been awhile since I've blogged! better get started on some updates.
well, the other night I watched Titanic. oh my gosh, it's SO sad! I was bawling my eyes out. but it is so good at the same time... aren't all sad movies? I think that it's the saddest movie I have ever seen, and I've seen my share of sad movies. I was probably a sight to see, sitting at my laptop bawling my eyes out over this movie. haha :]
well, I'm not really sure what else has happened... but I can recount what happened yesterday, which was a pretty fun day!
well I'll start with a bit of background information. in school we have drama class, and our grades (7 and 8) had two plays: whodunit? and The Scottish Play. I was in the latter, but I had a tinyyyy part in the first (I got to scream and faint, then be carried out on a stretcher... twas fun. haha). so anyway, we had rehearsals off-site (at a church where our performances would be) and the rides could be very entertaining.
So yeah. background info pretty much complete...
So yesterday I babysat in the morning, then awhile after that some friends came over and we hung out, then I went to drama performances.... all after getting 6-7 hours of sleep. So I was majorly exhausted... but performances went great, so that was good! at least what I saw of them. if we weren't in the play we couldn't watch the other ones, so I didn't get to see most of the other plays. But what I did see was good, and I heard awesome reviews. yay!
and now I'm working on finding information on Israel. why? In school we're having a world culture fair, and we have to find a bunch of information on a country assigned to you and a partner (my partner and I got Israel). Explanation over. haha.... so anyway, we have this list of all this information we're supposed to find, and I can't find some of it. like anywhere... so hopefully my partner has better luck than I do on that! I'm getting so sick of this, and we're supposed to have all our information found by tomorrow so that we can start putting it onto poster boards for when we present.... but it's been sort of interesting I guess to find out all this stuff about another country.
well anyway, I had better get back to homework... bluck.
well, the other night I watched Titanic. oh my gosh, it's SO sad! I was bawling my eyes out. but it is so good at the same time... aren't all sad movies? I think that it's the saddest movie I have ever seen, and I've seen my share of sad movies. I was probably a sight to see, sitting at my laptop bawling my eyes out over this movie. haha :]
well, I'm not really sure what else has happened... but I can recount what happened yesterday, which was a pretty fun day!
well I'll start with a bit of background information. in school we have drama class, and our grades (7 and 8) had two plays: whodunit? and The Scottish Play. I was in the latter, but I had a tinyyyy part in the first (I got to scream and faint, then be carried out on a stretcher... twas fun. haha). so anyway, we had rehearsals off-site (at a church where our performances would be) and the rides could be very entertaining.
So yeah. background info pretty much complete...
So yesterday I babysat in the morning, then awhile after that some friends came over and we hung out, then I went to drama performances.... all after getting 6-7 hours of sleep. So I was majorly exhausted... but performances went great, so that was good! at least what I saw of them. if we weren't in the play we couldn't watch the other ones, so I didn't get to see most of the other plays. But what I did see was good, and I heard awesome reviews. yay!
and now I'm working on finding information on Israel. why? In school we're having a world culture fair, and we have to find a bunch of information on a country assigned to you and a partner (my partner and I got Israel). Explanation over. haha.... so anyway, we have this list of all this information we're supposed to find, and I can't find some of it. like anywhere... so hopefully my partner has better luck than I do on that! I'm getting so sick of this, and we're supposed to have all our information found by tomorrow so that we can start putting it onto poster boards for when we present.... but it's been sort of interesting I guess to find out all this stuff about another country.
well anyway, I had better get back to homework... bluck.
Thursday, May 7, 2009
6-7-09
So..... today is May 7. national day of prayer.... also a pretty bad day for me. quite bad really. one year ago today, something changed my life forever. so obviously I wasn't too happy today. But after my friends noticed I had to push it all back, which probably just made it worse. I don't want to ruin their day just because of my own stupid problems.
I mean, the people around me shouldn't suffer just because of something that is making me suffer. instead of focusing on myself, I should be bringing a smile to someone else's face. right? it's just emotions. they're all in your head.
anyway. since I was having such a bad day, I couldn't focus on the bright side.... my friends finally get back from ethiopia tomorrow. I'm so excited to see them, pumped really, but I just can't think about it with what's going on. It makes me feel like a bit of a jerk.
Well that's all. I felt like I needed to write something since I haven't in quite awhile, but I am just not in the mood.
I mean, the people around me shouldn't suffer just because of something that is making me suffer. instead of focusing on myself, I should be bringing a smile to someone else's face. right? it's just emotions. they're all in your head.
anyway. since I was having such a bad day, I couldn't focus on the bright side.... my friends finally get back from ethiopia tomorrow. I'm so excited to see them, pumped really, but I just can't think about it with what's going on. It makes me feel like a bit of a jerk.
Well that's all. I felt like I needed to write something since I haven't in quite awhile, but I am just not in the mood.
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Sick... ick. (5-2-09)
So.... I'm sick. and it totally sucks.
First, we thought I might have strep.... but we sat in the hospital like four hours just to find out I didn't have strep. So I was glad for that, went to school yesterday (I had stayed home on Thursday) and had an okay time (I still felt sorta sick). Then last night for youthgroup we went to a Twins game (which was TOTALLY AWESOME) but I couldn't really enjoy it because I felt sorta sick and tired and my eye was acting up.... I get home to find out I most likely have pink eye. whoo hoo.
So I'm feeling quite miserable. There was so much I wanted to do this weekend, and now it looks like I can't do any of it! :( though I did some research, and if my pinkeye is caused by bacteria (which now I'm hoping it is) I could get antibiotics and it'll probably be gone in a day or two... which would be nice. Because I REALLY don't want to miss more school- plus I have a lot of soccer stuff this weekend (though I suppose I wouldn't be well enough in time for it anyway... :( Ish.)
Added to all this, there was a reported case of swine flu in our county. So now I'm really scared I'm going to get that.
Wow,.... I think I'm turning into a germaphobe....
First, we thought I might have strep.... but we sat in the hospital like four hours just to find out I didn't have strep. So I was glad for that, went to school yesterday (I had stayed home on Thursday) and had an okay time (I still felt sorta sick). Then last night for youthgroup we went to a Twins game (which was TOTALLY AWESOME) but I couldn't really enjoy it because I felt sorta sick and tired and my eye was acting up.... I get home to find out I most likely have pink eye. whoo hoo.
So I'm feeling quite miserable. There was so much I wanted to do this weekend, and now it looks like I can't do any of it! :( though I did some research, and if my pinkeye is caused by bacteria (which now I'm hoping it is) I could get antibiotics and it'll probably be gone in a day or two... which would be nice. Because I REALLY don't want to miss more school- plus I have a lot of soccer stuff this weekend (though I suppose I wouldn't be well enough in time for it anyway... :( Ish.)
Added to all this, there was a reported case of swine flu in our county. So now I'm really scared I'm going to get that.
Wow,.... I think I'm turning into a germaphobe....
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