So, I'm single. With no intentions of looking for a guy...
this time, I'm letting him find me.
For a few months now, I've been craving being in a relationship. I've wanted to date someone so badly... wanted someone to love me. It hasn't helped that it seems like everywhere I go I see couples walking together, holding hands and being all happy and cutesy together. Seeing it just makes me want it all the more. To add to this, my best friend is dating this guy that she had the hugest crush on for like all of the school year (I hope you don't mind me saying this, best friend. haha). I see them together all the time, just like I see the couples that I people-watch, and it yeilds the same results. Plus, I hear all the stories of what they did, and hear about the dates they go on. She tells me all the ups and downs... and I just want it.
But then I saw this flair. I'm single, as I have been my entire life (yes, I'm one of the few who have entered high school without having had dated a single soul). I'm also not used to not liking someone... I've only liked two guys my entire life, but I liked one the majority of my years and the other for most of the rest of them. So, I've spent this time trying to find some new guy to crush on (maybe even date? fingers were crossed and prayers said many a night). All that it's resulted in is frustration over not being able to find anyone.
Then this flair got me thinking (I bet the person who created it had no clue something like this would happen because of it) and I finally came to a decision. I want this to be true for me. I am sick of always mentally studying guys and searching for one who fits all my guidelines and that is possibility for crush material... I want to just sit back, wait, and enjoy the time I have to be single like I've heard you're supposed to do. I want a guy to come to me, in God's timing.
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