Dream House

I was thinking about what kind of things I want in a dream house...

To begin with, I have always wanted a library. A cozy little room a bit detached with a fireplace and tons of books and windows. Maybe with a glass roof, or part of the roof glass. And the windows would have little window seats, and the curtains could be pulled across so that you're off in your own little room... Oh my word, that would be amazing.

I also want a salt water aquarium. Somewhat big. With a few cool fish and seahorses. I really want seahorses! Though I would settle for a large normal aquarium I guess. Or, maybe both. A freshwater and saltwater aquarium, in different rooms.

The house itself would be kind of detached from society. Not too far away, but far enough that there aren't people ten feet away.

And, of course, my husband and three kids (a boy and two girls) are around as well. :) And our two dogs. Fortinbras, a black and white English Springer Spaniel, and a Golden Retriever.

I doubt I'll ever get this perfect house, but... A girl can dream.

HOT

Everyone has things that, if a person of the opposite sex does, makes their heart melt. Major turn-ons or whatever. Well, here are a couple of mine!

When a guy worships. Holy smokes. If I can see them totally getting into worship... They practically have me if they want me! It shows me they love God and it also earns my respect. So my heart pretty much melts.

When a guy wears a purity ring. It shows me that they want people to know they want to be pure. I think that's amazing. A lot of people think that only girls can wear purity rings... SO not true! I love it when I see a guy wearing one! Even though I've only seen like two. But it totally made me notice them!

Those are two of my biggest attractions in guys. And they are so major to me! haha... And if they're really super cute that's just icing on the cake. Love it.

Beauty

I just had a realization.

God made us. Crafted every bit of us... He labored over everything, down to our eyelashes, to make something He thinks is perfect and beautiful and wonderful in every way. Something "fearfully and wonderfully made."

Yet so many people (me included) go around dissing that. Saying how ugly we (or others) are and wishing we had this kind of nose or that color hair or whatever it is.

To God, that's like... Saying that his masterpiece is junk. It would be like someone drawing something they are so completely proud of, something they think is perfect and so so so so so good... Then someone else coming along and saying it looks horrible and it's garbage, that it's useless and ugly. Then another and another coming along and saying the same thing.

That must suck for God, huh? Wow... I'm sorry, God!

Best Thing

On a winter retreat I recently went on, I really reconnected with God. It was a really emotional time for me. Every time we worshiped I would find myself crying, overcome with the love God has for me. And I just worshiped my heart out. It was already something I love doing.

One night I got all bundled up in my snow gear and found a picnic table to lie on. I brushed some snow off and did so... Then just looked up at the stars and had a talk with God. Ohhhhhh my word. It was amazing.

I've always been intrigued by the stars, always found them so beautiful and so amazing. Then there's this video/lecture called Indescribable by Louis Gigleo or someone that gives you a totally new view of stars and completely blows your mind. So I just sat there, amazed by it all. After awhile, I started to just talk to God. To tell Him what I was thinking and all that. There were some amazing moments. In my head the song Lord I'm Amazed by You kept playing over and over... And it's true, so true. I'm utterly amazed by God and that night I was even more amazed. I kept trying to figured out why in the world God would love ME... And never came to a conclusion. But I know that He does and I guess that's enough for me.

One of the most touching moment was when I was looking up at all the stars and for some reason one stood out in particular... And, even better, all the other stars blacked out. It turned into a black sky with a single star shining bright... I don't know how to describe my feelings about it, it's kind of complicated. But in my head it all makes sense and it really encouraged me.

"Lord, I'm amazed by you.

...And how you love me."

Lover

Today I stumbled upon a realization. One that might sound weird to a lot of people... Especially non-Christians, but a lot of Christians probably as well. Sometimes it even sounds a little odd to me...

I want to be wooed by Jesus. I always hear that whole "Christianity is a relationship, not a religion" thing and... I want to take that literally. I want to be drawn closer to Christ... and maybe seeing Him as more of a lover of my heart will also help me get over my craving for being in a relationship.

So there it is. My thoughts on how I want to see Jesus now... I've mostly gotten the Father part down, but now I want to see Him as a lover. A lover of my soul.

Abortion

Lately I have been sooo thoughtful of abortion. I don't know why. I've always hated it, but lately I've been giving it so much more thought. I really want to take a stand against it... I'm not sure how to do that, but I want to.

So, I'm trying to find ways... So far my only idea is to make a video about it. (Which won't turn out well... I don't have very good computer or video-making skills. Oh well.)

So yeah.. Just wanted to get that out there.

http://www.jesus-is-savior.com/Evils%20in%20America/Abortion%20is%20Murder/horror_of_abortion.htm

I think I've posted this link before, I've probably also talked about abortion before. But I'll put it again.

*That website is pretty graphic, just a warning. If you can handle it, it's really good. Very eye-opening... And had me bawling (not too difficult a task though). I'd recommend you check it out.

Cake

I was thinking about that saying about having your cake and eating it too. If I think about it, I find it a bit nonsensical.

Who wants to just have a piece of cake as well as eat one? Why would you want a piece of cake that you aren't going to eat? Pointless... Unless it means that you have like never-ending cake. So, you could eat that piece and any piece after that and it just keeps coming. That'd be awesome and I'd totally understand. Then I think I'd want to have my cake and eat it too! Who wouldn't??

Anywho. That was just some random ramblings I was thinking about and thought I'd get out.