Best Thing

On a winter retreat I recently went on, I really reconnected with God. It was a really emotional time for me. Every time we worshiped I would find myself crying, overcome with the love God has for me. And I just worshiped my heart out. It was already something I love doing.

One night I got all bundled up in my snow gear and found a picnic table to lie on. I brushed some snow off and did so... Then just looked up at the stars and had a talk with God. Ohhhhhh my word. It was amazing.

I've always been intrigued by the stars, always found them so beautiful and so amazing. Then there's this video/lecture called Indescribable by Louis Gigleo or someone that gives you a totally new view of stars and completely blows your mind. So I just sat there, amazed by it all. After awhile, I started to just talk to God. To tell Him what I was thinking and all that. There were some amazing moments. In my head the song Lord I'm Amazed by You kept playing over and over... And it's true, so true. I'm utterly amazed by God and that night I was even more amazed. I kept trying to figured out why in the world God would love ME... And never came to a conclusion. But I know that He does and I guess that's enough for me.

One of the most touching moment was when I was looking up at all the stars and for some reason one stood out in particular... And, even better, all the other stars blacked out. It turned into a black sky with a single star shining bright... I don't know how to describe my feelings about it, it's kind of complicated. But in my head it all makes sense and it really encouraged me.

"Lord, I'm amazed by you.

...And how you love me."