Bare

I just realized something tonight. There is a time when I tend to feel closer to God... More loved by him... That feeling where you can totally FEEL that He is actually real, actually there, and He actually cares.

When is this time? When I'm at my "worst." That time of night when all the makeup (which I've started to slowly wear more and more of) comes off, the hair goes back, the comfy pajamas (with the torn up sweat pant bottoms and huge top) come on... When all my "flaws" are showing, I look terrible... I have this like connection to God at this time.

Maybe I inwardly realize at times like these that God loves me, He accepts me, even when I'm at my worst. That He loves it when I take all my outward adornment off and become comfortable with Him. I want that all the time. I want to be comfortable with God, at all times.

So, maybe for awhile I go without makeup. Without worrying over what clothes make me look good. I'll just have some time to be comfortable and bare with God... Even if it means everyone else thinks I look terrible.

Because maybe I don't care what they think.