Connected.

So there's this guy. A guy I just so happened to like for eight years (no longer, though... I've liked two other guys since him and those few are the only ones so far)... Anyway, that's not what's important.

I don't know what it is... But I feel like my heart is still linked with his. Not in a romantic way, I don't feel like that towards him anymore. But in some other sort of way. I don't know. I mean, it's kind of really hard to explain. But I was thinking about it during church tonight... I looked at him and just felt grieved. Over the fact that we're no longer friends, we no longer talk, that I miss being his friend. I don't know. He could make such a huge difference if he put his mind to it, I know it. He has so much potential stored within him. And maybe that's why my heart cries out to him.

I've tried to connect with him again, but he doesn't seem too interested. And I don't see him much, just on Sundays and Wednesdays if we both happen to be there.

I can't put my finger on it yet, but... I still feel like something might happen between us. Maybe our friendship will be rekindled, maybe God has a plan, maybe maybe maybe. I hope. For now, I'll be in the dark and confused, with my heart crying over him.