EuroQuest

Today in chapel at school we had some new speakers come talk to us... And I was completely moved.

They were talking about a missions trip organization called (I think) Royal Ministries. (Here's a link for you: http://www.reignministries.org/royal-servants check it out!) They just pretty much talked about what they were doing, the places they went, etc... Just basic information. The entire time I would randomly hear "go" repeated in my mind.

Now, add to that this:

Last week was spiritual emphasis week at school and I heard a lot about being brave... The seniors said that's what God told them to say about me and I heard it myself. To be brave and step out of what I find comfortable to do what God wants...

Exactly what they were talking about.

So, I was pretty much wowed. I'm pretty sure God's calling me to do this and I'm amazed! And terrified! My main hesitation is that I'll be with a bunch of strangers who could very well have along their own friends. What if I'm rejected or don't really find anyone to hang out with? I don't want to be alone.

But I still feel like I should go. It would be stepping out of my comfort zone BIG TIME and I'd probably be scared to death, but if it's what God wants me to do...

Which brings me to another point. While I was sitting here thinking about it, I got a little panicked. I realized I'd be gone for (I think) 6.5 weeks. 48 days I believe. That's wayyyyyy longer than the week I've been gone for camp or mission's trips, which is with people I know and love! To be gone like 7 times as long with a bunch of people I've never seen before? SCARY! So I was thinking about all that and freaking out, thinking about how I'd be so far from home for so long and worrying that I'd get homesick, etc... And I heard God say something along the lines of "Home is with Me. Home is in your heart." WOW!

So... I'm definitely going to bring this up with my parents. And do a ton of praying and thinking and probably worrying. If I could go, that'd be so amazing! 48 days in several countries across Europe, including Paris (where I've always wanted to go)?? As well as (I believe) going to Auschwitz, where I've also always wanted to go?? (Not sure if they're going there, but it said in the brochure something about doing that on a previous trip, so maybe...)

Unbelievable.